So you’re stuck in a rut. Life has become a series of endless repetitive notions and movements. Your creativity is ebbing, life draining, and every day seems as if everyone else is ahead of you. Luckily for you, you’re not alone. I was once told that life, like the earth, has seasons and to mark the end of one season and the beginning of another season you have to clean house.
Think about the moments where you sit reflectively about your life. In those times when monotony takes a firm grip and you start to wonder if you should really be doing what you are. That’s probably what life feels like right now. I’ve been looking around my four little walls, which really should have been painted by now, in anguish. When did these walls become a prison marred by clutter and disarray?
For the last few months, I’ve been thinking about the fact that I’ve lived in the same town all of my life. I’ve been a “good” girl who never smoked, or drank (or dated really). I’ve been carefully sweet and impossibly nice to most of the people I’ve met. Everything has been sweet, and innocent, and adorable.
It might be because I’m creative, but has anyone else dreamed of the person they want to be? As in there’s this character in your head that’s the epitome of who you hope to become?
You see, despite my appearance, I’m a big fan of rock n roll. I love leather, tattoos, everything that is black, and hot men with full glorious beards. Despite society’s insistence on portraying most black women as hip hop video girls (not that there is anything wrong with that), or head popping finger snapping rap lovers (again there is absolutely nothing wrong with that). It’s just not me. Not even a little bit.
In the next few days, I’m going to be clearing out my room. I’ve had the same stuff in my wardrobe for year and years and now I want to save up and invest in what I’m wearing and buy things that I really love. My life is about to change. Change is not always popular, but necessary, and I can’t wait to share it all with you.
I hope you all have a wonderful day and are okay with my rambling. I’ll see you all in the next one!